“Know now there is no time
Space between the well and unknowing
Our story starts there
Well into our future, yet far beyond our past
In a romance between a pair of unheavenly creatures”
Coheed and Cambria – Prologue
It is something about the voice that makes me shiver. The kind of shiver I get when I am totally lost in music.
Coheed and Cambria’s new album Vaxis – Act I: The Unheavenly Creatures starts with a simple piano melody and in a way only music can do it, it comforts me right from the beginning. It somehow makes me feel like I’m just a visitor in this world, someone that just passes by. And I like this feeling!
Maybe, because I’ve always have been and probably always will be struggling to find my place here.
Maybe, because it makes me think I’m not alone after all.
During the last couple of years, I had to face the fact that it is quite complicated to really explain what’s going on in my head to someone that never had thoughts like that. And for once in a while I’m not talking about living with depression. I’m talking about feeling like you don’t belong here, like you’re not one for being a person, like you’re accepting that life isn’t for everyone and your just a spectator of your own personal horror show.
How do you explain that you don’t want to be around people because they make you feel alone?
How do you explain that you talk a lot – and I mean a lot – because it’s your way of hiding your real self?
How do you explain that you rather philosophize about all these big emotions – like fear, hope, frustration, anger, love – in a rational way than hoping for something that won’t ever happen to you anyways?
I’ve always been told that one does not want to take a look into my head. And I get that, I wouldn’t invite you to do so anyhow. What you’d see is a lot of indescribable thoughts, a complicated mindset, anger and pain – but little moments of happiness as well. And I only have met a handful of people that understood so far. And even out of them, there are probably only three that will completely understand what this text is about.
Well, that’s why I love music. It is here, it is real, and it makes me feel comfortable in this world for a very brief moment. Sometimes, it feels like it has only waited for me to have similar thoughts or emotions to finally fully act out these feelings. And while you now are highly encouraged to go and listen to this album, I’ll end with another quote:
“The weight of the world on the shoulders, can you feel the thunder?
All unheavenly creatures (Oh, oh, all the unheavenly creatures)
We’re all unheavenly creatures!”
Coheed and Cambria – Unheavenly Creatures